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Somedays I get a feeling that I was never meant to be a writer. Or else why would so many obstacles get in my way when all I wish for, is to sit quietly in my ‘corner’ and write.

Yes, the proverbial brick wall comes right up and stops me from achieving my goals. I’ve tried ways of getting around it, but, must admit, things have not gone as planned at all.

I haven’t written anything over the last 13 days, to be very honest. Tried a few different approaches, but no luck this time. Giving up sounded simple. But, even that was next to impossible!

So, the only option was to take a break!

Juggling responsibilities, balancing it with my other commitments makes plenty of demands on my time. When the best part of the day is gone, usually my writing muse has also abandoned me. Struggling to write in those in-between everyday moments has taken away all the joys of blogging and writing for me!

We all face obstacles on a daily basis. I have faced them too. So, why is this working against me now?

Maybe, the approach taken against these obstacles is what separates those who achieve great things and those who do not. Maybe, that’s why I need to find a way out too.

The brick walls that are blocking my way every day over these last 13 days are the metaphors for the obstacles I’m facing in life right now – the confusion that makes me question where I should draw the line between my duties and my passions, i.e., my writing. There are many conflicting thoughts at the moment and a conflict of roles too. For instance, the role of the ‘mother’ who dotes on her son and wishes to spend more time with him is vying for time with the role of the ‘individual’ who wishes to devote all her time to writing and blogging.

The sense of guilt comes from the fact that I take both the roles seriously. How and where to draw the line is a tough choice to make.

I now see that the brick walls are forcing me to reason a lot of things, especially those that are very integral to me as a person.

The choices are many.

For instance, I could go over the  walls. This could potentially be the hardest course and would require the most effort. Well, the walls are tall for a reason.

Or, perhaps, I could go right through some of the walls – break away with old rules that do not apply any more. But, I must be careful. The challenge here is to ensure that I will win and not the wall.

I could also choose to beat the wall to outsmart it. Most walls are stationary obstacles, and with the right strategy I could outflank them. Do you think the easiest path could be around the wall?

Whatever it is, one thing is certain, sitting and waiting for the wall to go away is not going to happen. Sometimes, timing is everything. That new idea may not fly now, but it could, later, under changed circumstances. Sometimes an obstacle is temporary.

Perhaps, that is another way of seeing it. Perhaps, the brick wall is trying to tell me something.

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How are you facing your brick wall? Are you letting the walls prevent you from reaching your goals?

(Linking up with #Mondaymusings on everydaygyaan)