I often wonder why it happens this way—Just when you’ve been working hard to set things right and finally they all seem to come together and fall in place, life suddenly throws a volley at you, grounding you like never before. Just why?
Lately, a family crisis has thrown things completely out of gear, especially at a time when I’ve been feeling really upbeat about some of my plans that I’ve now been working on for the past few months, and now I’m face to face with a situation where every plan seems to be out of place and there’s a terrifying uncertainty on a host of issues.
Why oh why now— I ask myself. Of course, I have no answer. We don’t often find we have answers to these moments. If we did, we wouldn’t be ordinary mortals, would we? We’d be wise enlightened souls who have the answer to every situation under the sun. What really gets to me is my tendency to get lost in my feelings about it.
The most difficult part of uncertainty, for me, is the inability to plan and feel in control. I always end up speculating a lot, which leads to feelings, lead on to more speculation and then more feelings.
I realise that not knowing what is waiting around the corner can be uncomfortable but the truth is we cannot see beyond the realm of the next moment—what lies immediately ahead of us. So, the next best thing to do is to be in readiness to face the consequences. I draw inspiration from everywhere, staying hopeful that this too shall pass and that I shall feel upbeat again, very soon. It helps to remind myself that even though I cannot see the future, I can help create it by being hopeful about the possibilities.
When nothing is sure, anything is possible.
So, for the moment let me trust the wait and embrace the uncertainty. And in the process, let me also allow myself to stand up for the right to feel pain, possess the maturity to endure it, to own the scars and have the pragmatism to deal with the realities of life.
Nobody says growing into the strongest, wisest, truest version of ourselves has ever been easy. We cannot give up without trying, though!